Bipolar, but still Christian : Just Another Challege

At twenty five years old I did not want to decide to stop having children after just one. I was afraid of going through the same struggles all over again so I did a lot of research and took my time thinking and praying. I had a Christian doctor who said she agreed there was a chance the second time around things would go just fine. The research told me I had a 80% chance of re-occurrence . Not as good as the one in 1,000 chance I had the first time around. That didn't sound too promising so we were looking at reducing the intensity of the episode and possible treatments rather than preventing it all together. I was hopeful though that I would be in the 20%. Jonathan was three before I decided to try to have another baby again. We had a plan for what we would do when the baby came. That got changed some when we had to move out of state when I was almost eight months pregnant. But I found doctors over the phone before we moved and did the best I could to start a new plan. I hir

I am starting my own blog to reduce my boredom and give me a place to put my thoughts. Recently some people I know put some very difficult words out for all the world to see. I have been chicken to do the same and now I want to set the record straight. I didn't talk to people from high school for over ten years. It seems so silly now. I found out recently that I'm not the only one who grew up in college and beyond. We aren't kids anymore so the past is just that the past. I'll admit some of it I don't want to remember, but we did have some fun times in high school. The truth is something happened to me that I was not at all ready to talk about so I just avoided people. I got married in 1998 to a really great guy I met in college. We were giddy and in love. We decided after nine months of bliss to have a baby. Why not? I was bored and we wanted one. That sounds terrible to say that, but it is true. Boom one month later I was expecting. Three months later Jo