Bipolar, but still Christian : Just Another Challege

I have contemplated whether or not we should or shouldn’t do a lot of things lately. Truly those are personal decisions. Although our choices always can effect those around us, we aren’t in the business of forcing our ideas on others. Faced with missing out on special times I love and missing my friends and family it isn’t easy to choose to isolate. I was looking for a Bible verse to try to get some clarity. I actually asked for an out loud Gideon sign and got one. It was clearly a “No.” Reading Romans just reminds me that we need Jesus to help us because we cannot understand God’s will on our own. Sometimes the “No” we listen to is really important. I can still remember the loud whisper when I was young. I tried to do something foolish. God clearly said,”No.” But Roman reminds us nothing can separate us from His love.

Have you ever been fine? You don't have an incurable disease. You aren't in unbearable pain. Therefore you are fine. Right? I am having one of my manic spells. For me that means my thoughts are racing extra fast and it's difficult to focus. I have trouble going to sleep. And as is with bipolar, the more sleep I looss the worse it gets. I think it's getting a little better which means get ready for the depression. Physically I am dealing with some chronic food allergies and skin allergies that are making things fun. Sometimes those little things matter yet people shake there head to say, "That's no big deal." Sometimes I need to people to care about the no big deals of my reality. It doesn't make anyone's BIG DEAL any less important. Still people I know lost a husband, a father, a mother, a sister, a brother, or a friend. I am so sorry for their loss. The friends I lost most recently were to Cancer. Not CoVid. More and more people are surviving Covi