I sometimes feel like I am drifting in and out of places without a place to land. I find it hard to NOT say exactly what I am thinking and feeling. This isn't easy for regular people to deal with(:. I find myself holding back pieces of my true nature. I am uncertain when it is safe to relax and land. It is frustrating. As comfortable as I am in my own family, I am concerned that if I don't venture out of my comfort zone I could end up lonely. I need friends outside of them. I do have friends, however, not enough. My problem is just knowing people. I know lots of people just on the surface. We had that same issue growing up. It used to really bug me. People at church who would smile and ask, "How are you?." You know what you are supposed to say. "Fine." I'd be thinking, "What do you care, you don't know us." You don't know that my father comes home late at night and tells my Mom she's crazy. I didn't know what they were fightin