Bipolar, but still Christian : Just Another Challege

This silly title was encouraged by the battle between those who love to hold a "real" book in their hand and those who enjoy digital books. I have admitted that when Nook came out with a brand new e reader I said, "I don't need that!" That was until I saw one and heard about all the free books you could get on a regular basis. Then libraries starting carrying them too which meant you could check out library book from your house. How cool is that? I started from that, but when I actually used one it grew to so many other reasons. My first e reader was the original Nook 1. It didn't have any of the bells and whistles that e readers have now. Here is what I loved about that. I could enlarge my text and their was zero glare in the sun. That meant I could sit on a bench at the park and read while my boys ran around. No headache from reading in the sun. Today you can change the background color of your page, the way our view the text, and the size of the text. Yo

I can’t sleep because I am once again having allergy slash acid reflux attack. I tried drained my sinuses and it just lead to a choking on my own spit incident. The reason I don’t try to do it first thing in the morning. But enough about my icky physical problems. My oldest is at college. We miss him. I held it all in for a few days and found myself crying at the most random times. I want him to grow up and live his own life. I just realized that I have poured everything into my little family and pretty soon they’ll be gone. I like my mother will end up alone. I fear my husband’s health won’t hold up as long as I would like. Why does God ask me to struggle inwardly while others struggle outwardly? That is to say my friend suffers from stage four Cancer. It doesn’t look like a cure is coming, but she’s still here. I don’t wish I had some disease, but it would be nice if we could just be like Elijah and say we’re done. I know I haven’t done anything great. Probably going to be a small me