Bipolar, but still Christian : Just Another Challege

 Remember the story Coorie Ten Bloom told about being thankful for the fleas. If you haven’t read her book, you need to. Anyway, her sister and Coorie were in a concentration camp at the time. Her sister said we need to thank God for the fleas. She couldn’t find a reason to be thankful for fleas. Sometime later they discovered that the Guards were raping the women, but would not come near her and her sister because they were infested with fleas. God can take the most irritating things in our life and use them for our good. We can’t see what is ahead of us. I was trying so hard to be thankful yesterday and then one more thing happened. So now I am just saying, God I don’t understand it, but I know you do. Trying to be thankful anyway and it sure feels just a bit lighten.

 This morning I got up and as usual the blood pressure dropped. I tripped over a laundry basket and found myself on the floor. I had the hardest time getting up with my blood pressure still so low. It’s a weird feeling like your head is falling and the rest of you wants to do the same. Yet I did get up and everything passed. Not sure if that’s a metaphor for how difficult it is to get up when we are down low or for the things in life that try to pull us down. It feels like you aren’t going to get through, but you do. It seems to difficult to get up, but you can. Psalm 139:8-10 was in my head this morning. Whether I am up high or down low, God is there.