Bipolar, but still Christian : Just Another Challege

That's right I'm sort of here. For too many years, I had to go someplace else figuratively to survive in reality. Now I find it difficult to stay here when I'm really O.K. in the now. I find myself stuck in the reality of my memories I tried so hard to block out. My therapist wants me to see them in a new way. I realized just yesterday that I have to take everyone else out of the equation and focus on healing myself. I'm too concerned with everyone else is the translation of that criptic remark. I can't change what was, but maybe if I can see it differently I can live with it. That is without it messing up how I see things in the present. I know psycho babble. I have no desire to dishonor God or leave His purpose out. I have known since I was small that I needed a Heavenly Father. I was terrified of nightmares and praying to Jesus was the only thing that helped me sleep. Later I trusted Him for other things and yes as a result of His hand in my life I wanted to serv

Have you ever found yourself listening to someone speak and suddenly a part of your brain escapes into a world of all its own. You take what that person actually said and begin to analyze what it surely must have meant. Meanwhile the rest of your brain is attempting to pay attention to what the person talking to you is continuing to say. Alright, I admit this sounds ridiculous, but welcome to my brain(:. That isn't to say this is always the case, but far to often it is. I have to consentrate on listening and ask the person to repeat stuff if my mind begins to wander. Sometimes I have no trouble at all listening. On a bad day, it's like a tornado went off inside my head. The good news I've been finding is that "normal" people seem to struggle with this too. They just don't to the same extent.