Bipolar, but still Christian : Just Another Challege

I know I'm often too candid. I am winding down now so to speak. I finally wore myself out. It felt good to sleep and I actually didn't have time to as much as I wanted to. That's the trouble now. I am busier than usual and it is hard to balance everything. I am hoping to figure it out. "This world is not my home. I'm just passing through...and I can't feel at home in this world anymore."

If normal people have spring fever, than I must have spring mania. Our family is dealing with multiple uncertainties right now. Although I am trying to trust God, right now the anxiety is just about choking me. I can't sleep when I'm supposed to and I have to nap during the day to keep functional. If I didn't I would start to get dazed and confused. Anyway, the train is moving and I don't know how to slow it down. I know I can't control my circumstances no matter what they are, but how do I get my head to stop spinning. It's funny the other day I prayed and took a deep breath and the Lord immediately brought to my mind the verse, "Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on thee." That's the trouble thou now isn't it. If my mind was truely stayed on Him I wouldn't be spinning...Would I? Well I'm going to go to bed and if I can sleep... SLEEP