Bipolar, but still Christian : Just Another Challege

 My verse for the day from my devotional is Romans 8:28, “ And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose.” I have a couple thoughts on this verse. First work together for means it hasn’t happened yet. It can be hard to find the positive when you’re in the middle of a struggle that isn’t ending. Only God can see the why of that particular struggle. I also believe obstacles are often put in our path for our protection. We can’t see what might be ahead, but God can. Preventing us from moving or going a particular way is often protecting us from harm. It’s hard not knowing why. It’s hard when you pray and get no answers. I don’t think that’s because God is ignoring me, but that He is telling me to wait. It’s not easy to wait either, but the working together for good has to come from God. I can’t push the cart myself and expect to get anywhere. “God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.” Psalm

 I’ve been thinking on why I write. It’s been a minute since I explained my blog’s purpose. I started journaling when I was about twelve or thirteen. I am not sure which. I was going through something and had so many words. Yet anytime I tried to talk, I was silenced. Not only did writing give me a way to get everything out, but I also found in thinking it through on the page; I felt better. With my mental illness diagnosis in the 2004, I wanted to make my journal public. How many people suffer in silence? So while not everyone wants a public journal, I do think having one is a terrific tool to deal with trauma and chronic health issues. I try to do like David in the Bible and bring things back to a positive. God is always with me no matter the circumstances. That is not  just something I say. I remembered this last week how I felt at twelve years old writing that journal. I would pray and cry  and go to sleep. I remember feel like there was this warm bubble all around me. Yes, I know