Bipolar, but still Christian : Just Another Challege

I have often felt like I know this woman having struggled off and on with my own issues. Very possible she had endometriosis which I do not. I am certainly thankful as that is such a difficult thing. Why do I love this story then? She was unseen. She had an issue no one could see. She couldn't talk about or get any relief. As my good old issue came back again and knocked me of my physical strength, I am reminded of this lady. I am not referring to my emotional struggles. This was good old fashioned physical nuisance. My devotional was about taking care of my body. All I can gleen from that is sleep and drink a bunch. This will pass. Not signifigant enough to say. Forgive me if I too feel the need to sneak up and touch Jesus garment anyway. Because I need to be refreshed. Do you ever just need someone to hit reset for you? Do you ever need to take a day to do nothing? I will be doing that tomorrow and just hope by the next day I have happy insides(:.

I am having a bad day. The last few days I have been off. This is bipolar. I was up, up, up excited and forgot to take my pills for three days. By Saturday, I was weepy and axious. There isn't a something. I just feel bad. Tears are at the edge of my eyelids. I am stressed about the house, bills, and our non exsistant parent strategies. The old insecurities started piling in and I just can't. To want to diapear and appear at the same time is quite a conundrum. I think my hormones are going nutty too which may be a huge part if it. I prayed for a little hope and a song came on the radio about hope. I asked God to help me believe. He answered me very specifically, but I don't FEEL better. I just know I will.

I am running out of good title ideas. Maybe I need to unlock comments again.(: Anyway, I am having a challenge this raining morning. Afternoon now. Yikes! I still feel achy since mt flu shot last week. I can't seem to get anything done. Not even sure where to start. I think there's been an avalanche and I am under it all. If my therapist was here she would tell me to make a list. Somehow magically that will work. I tried to do my vision exercises and my eyes wouldn't coorperate so there something physical. Probably head pressure from the allergies. So herein is the deal. I will try to get a space cleared and then call it a day.