If normal people have spring fever, than I must have spring mania. Our family is dealing with multiple uncertainties right now. Although I am trying to trust God, right now the anxiety is just about choking me. I can't sleep when I'm supposed to and I have to nap during the day to keep functional. If I didn't I would start to get dazed and confused. Anyway, the train is moving and I don't know how to slow it down. I know I can't control my circumstances no matter what they are, but how do I get my head to stop spinning. It's funny the other day I prayed and took a deep breath and the Lord immediately brought to my mind the verse, "Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on thee." That's the trouble thou now isn't it. If my mind was truely stayed on Him I wouldn't be spinning...Would I? Well I'm going to go to bed and if I can sleep... SLEEP
As a kid I watched my parents fight about different things. I don't really have any other parents to compare them to so I can't really say whether they were normal fights couples have or not. I couldn't even say what most of them were about except the ones that were about me. We only ate as a family on holidays. My father came home late so we kids ate without him. I do remember spending time with him in the evening before I went to bed so it couldn't have been that late. My own husband gets home a little later because of his job commute so we eat late every night. But home schooling has given us the ability to be more flexible than my Mom was able to be. We had school early the next day. As I got older, I remember my Father being home less and less and the fights seemed to intensify. I remember one night when I was thirteen. I could hear them yelling through the wall. My mom found me crying and I told her I didn't want them to get a divorce. She told me...
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