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The Label

Although I was told in 2000 that I had bi-polar tendencies, I did not have an aggressive psychiatrist and I was able to go of medication completely when I was ready. I felt this pressure to hurry up and get off the pills because it was drilled into me how bad they were. I have been a Bible believing Christian since I was little and I have no desire to do anything that would displease God. Having said that I could not and still have not found a Biblical argument for NOT using the medication if I need to in order to stay healthy.

In 2004, after Matthew was born, I got the official stamp...I have bi-polar disorder. I hated the label because I feared the response I would get from other Christians. I grew up in old school Bible church where people didn't have psychological problems unless there weren't trusting God. The old "the only pill is the gospel." I have actually heard that from the pulpit more than once in the last few years(by different preachers).

God was very good to me though because He gave me a pastor who looked me right in the eye and said He didn't think it was bad for me to take the medication. He talked about how people medicate themselves for other reasons and that isn't wrong. Now it does get sticky because I could be on pain medications for an injury and become addicted and suddenly the pills are bad. I think the same common sense applies to my medicines. They cannot rule my life.

Honestly I hate taking them. I only do it so my children have their mother. I might risk going off them if it weren't for them. I know what the episodes do to the people I love.

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