I finally let loose and cried for real. Now I am trying to move on. I still find myself tearing up when something reminds me of the one I lost, but it is getting easier. Everyone grieves differently so I guess I can't expect to follow some particular mold. I am starting to get a piece of understanding for those who lost a loved also and thought I wish I could tell her this and remember that she is gone. I am so used to releying on her that it is hard to fill the empty space. I know writing this helps me an maybe reading it will help someone else too. God bless till next time.
I feel not so much a storm as a little shower of emotional rain. My mind is filled to the brim with thoughts and trying not to go batty trying to sort them through on my own. Then I start feeling isolated as I have no one to talk to. I have therapy next week so I will talk then for sure. It’s not even anything bad; it’s just so full I am thinking out loud. That never bothered me before, but now I am feeling unsteady. I have talked to myself my whole life. I am certainly not going to stop now, but it feels like a gateway to the enemy deceiving me all over again. He can disguise his voice to sound like anyone else. So if my thoughts are out loud, I’m Vulnerable. I miss my friends. I have a few here and there . I miss lighthearted fun. I am just waiting for God to pull the curtain on this season and to start to feel more like myself again. I’m not asking God for anything He doesn’t want me to have, I just need to get through this little shower. I know God still has things for me to d...
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