I have that ache in my jaw that I get from tensing it too much. I watched a TV show of all things and started crying. Not a rare occurrence for me, but I realized I wasn't crying about a show anymore. I starting crying for real and I had to make myself stop. If I cry, If I really cry,...I'll get that nasty shake that goes through your whole body. I won't be able to stop until my head hurts and my eyes burn. It's 3 in the morning and now I can't sleep because I am trying NOT to cry. Having said that I think I'm delirious enough to go try to sleep now.
As a kid I watched my parents fight about different things. I don't really have any other parents to compare them to so I can't really say whether they were normal fights couples have or not. I couldn't even say what most of them were about except the ones that were about me. We only ate as a family on holidays. My father came home late so we kids ate without him. I do remember spending time with him in the evening before I went to bed so it couldn't have been that late. My own husband gets home a little later because of his job commute so we eat late every night. But home schooling has given us the ability to be more flexible than my Mom was able to be. We had school early the next day. As I got older, I remember my Father being home less and less and the fights seemed to intensify. I remember one night when I was thirteen. I could hear them yelling through the wall. My mom found me crying and I told her I didn't want them to get a divorce. She told me...
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