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Ansomnia

Up in the wee hours of the morning, is yet another perk of being bipolar. Yes, that's sarcasm because unlike some, I don't like being like this. I started getting a little more hyper than usual and now I can't sleep. I slept for an hour or two when hubby woke me up and I couldn't get back to sleep after. So I wasn't worried about anything, but I was wide awake. Even though I now feel tired, I still don't feel sleepy. It is hard to explain. Well I already took some calm down medicine and that didn't work so I am getting ready to take more. I use it only when I have to, but considering I need to function in a few hours I WILL consider this one of those times. I was excited about started school and I guess maybe I am going through an up cycle. That sort of makes sense since I had a down cycle in the beginning of the summer. I am glad that the cycles are much shorter than they used to be. I remember being tired and having little energy or ambition to do anything and now BOOM it's just the opposite. I like getting things done,but I don't like the racing that goes on in my head. I know my friends and family have much bigger problems. I just hope my meds work because I am in between psychiatrists and this is not a good time for medication adjustments. If I could did through the recesses of my mind I would probably find that I am a little anxious about some things, but figuring out what they all are is difficult. I am thankful for the support of my family and friends although I have found I can't talk to them about this stuff. So as always, Don't read it if you don't want to. I find being open about what I am really feeling even in this small way helps me stay well.

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  1. Mrs_ScotsmanAugust 16, 2009 at 6:12 PM

    I've been having more insomnia too with the pregnancy. I know how it feels!

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  2. AmesredSeptember 1, 2009 at 10:42 PM

    I've got twenty minutes to go if I'm going to make it so we'll see. I hope you get your rest Jessi. It's hard to sleep through the night when you're pregnant.

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