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Feeling Nostalgic

Thinking about all the people I've know over the years from the five states and five churches I've been a part of. I can't say there were many real friends although MANY deal people made an impact in my life. There were caring teachers when I was a kid and sweet kind believers who helped in times of need. I know I am part of the reason there were few lasting friendships. I haven't been that great at it. I am learning. I have to say that it was my family that surprised me the most. In my toughest moments, or should I say my ugliest(:; It was my family that loved me anyway. They except me just as I am. I am so thankful for that. I have a few real friends that are amazing, but they aren't blood. I don't expect them to put up with whatever I dish up. In turn, I have to take whatever they dish up. I spent away my energy trying to please people that didn't matter. I should be "proving what is acceptable unto the Lord."

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