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So Now What?

I had planned last night to write something eloquent, but opted to sleep instead. And now in the words of my father, "I have nothing brilliant to say." Seriously, the last month and a half has been busy with the finishing of the school year. I am always a little surprised how wiped out I feel shortly after. What just happened? Bam! Just another school year ended. The summer started with a blast of activity that I was less than enthusiastic to participate in. We have done some things, but I'm still feeling wiped. Not exciting or eloquent, I know, just true. Do all mothers feel this way or just us nutty ones? Yes, I am calling myself nutty. As for the rest of you, you can decide for yourself.

As for my bipolar, I have been on a mini-roller coaster ride lately. Up, down, up, down, around a curve, and up, down, up. I say mini cause I am not having extreme swings just minor ones. I would even go so far as to say that I am not really depressed at all just more tired than usual. As for the other, a little more irritable and weepy than usual, but nothing to worry about. I could be a normal woman imagine that! My hubby will never understand that one for sure.

I read a verse today from Romans today about being faithful and tonight we had a message that sort of talked about that as well. I love how the Holy Spirit twines the thoughts of different people together to still give out God's clear message. I sang "All on the Altar" this morning and I could feel myself choke up towards the end. My emotions are so raw right now. Do I really want peace enough to be faithful? Or would I rather do what I want and be happy for a moment? I know it sounds so simple doesn't it? Of course I want peace, but I struggle with that day to day battle against the flesh every single day. Hip Hip Hurray Got Through Today. Now for the strength to do it all again tomorrow.

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