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One More Challenge

I guess everyday has it's challenges for each of us. I am constantly having to remind myself NOT to go back to my unhealthy people pleasing ways and to concentrate on doing what God wants me to. I always clearly know what that is however. I was in a situation last night where I was dealing with an (in lack of a better word) ignorant Christian lady. I really think she wanted to understand what "bipolar" means to me; but she wanted to try to fix me in the process(:. She will never truly understand, but maybe I helped her a little. I just hope I didn't injure myself in the process. I have struggled to except what IS that I am bipolar. I have come to terms with that and even learned to be thankful for God's purpose which I don't really understand. I don't want to go backwards to please some person. It's just not worth it. I believe I Cor 10:13, but it is talking about God helping us to endure trial not poof it's gone. "God is my refuge and strength..." I guess I will have to figure this person in my life must be a new challenge to go through.

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