Every year this is bitter sweet. I laugh and cry off and on like a crazy woman. My emotions are just too loose. I know it isn't just me that deals with it. Maybe it's unrealistic expectations. Maybe it's sad reminders. I really don't know. It just is so weird. We stress out about this bills and the events. We try to stop long enough to enjoy the family. And here I sit in the middle of it all as if I am not here at all. I really need to fight to be present in what IS. I don't expect everyone out there to understand that. I am not sure I even do. I know God must understand it or there wouldn't be so many words of comfort in Scripture. But right now I want to hide away from everyone and everything. At the same time; I don't. It's that constant battle being REAL.
Have you ever settled for just fine? Have you ever found yourself in pain every day and been told this is just normal for your age? After just not feeling good for a long time, I realized I was gaining weight again rapidly. I found this webinar about low thyroid and weight loss. I thought what’s the harm? I knew after that first session that I had found a solution. People have been telling me for years how they gave up sugar and felt amazing. I thought I just couldn’t do it. Now years later even before I started to watch I knew I have to give up sugar. Giving up gluten didn’t really help me because so much of the gluten free foods are loaded with sugar. Anyway, if you see me eating a chocolate bar, send help 🤣. I really want to wake up in the morning ready to start a day. Like that feeling on Christmas morning when you just can’t wait to get out of bed. What would it be like to feel like that every day? My pain is less some days than others. Exercise helps. I am thankful my God l...
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