For any newbies reading my blog and reminder to the old ones. Why am I blogging about myself? This is basically a public journal. I am holding myself accountable in a sense by airing so much publicly. I put the warnings about the content because there are many people who are so uncomfortable around the topic of mental illness that I know they would not enjoy reading my blog. I am careful to be sensitive to that when I am around them, however, I am not apologizing for having bipolar disorder and discussing it opening. We all have parts of us that are broken in one form or anther. While we can't go around complaining every moment of the day, it isn't something to try to hide from. I can say, "I'm fine" and most of the time that is true, but that doesn't make me no longer bipolar.
I also find that there really isn't a much good Christian encouragement for people with mental illness. I would like to encourage others that you can hold on to God through emotional struggles just as you would through physical ones.
As a kid I watched my parents fight about different things. I don't really have any other parents to compare them to so I can't really say whether they were normal fights couples have or not. I couldn't even say what most of them were about except the ones that were about me. We only ate as a family on holidays. My father came home late so we kids ate without him. I do remember spending time with him in the evening before I went to bed so it couldn't have been that late. My own husband gets home a little later because of his job commute so we eat late every night. But home schooling has given us the ability to be more flexible than my Mom was able to be. We had school early the next day. As I got older, I remember my Father being home less and less and the fights seemed to intensify. I remember one night when I was thirteen. I could hear them yelling through the wall. My mom found me crying and I told her I didn't want them to get a divorce. She told me...
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