I know I have said it before thus the weird title. Today and yesterday I was really discouraged about something. I spoke to a friend and she really gave me a boost. When Elijah was discouraged and thought he was the only prophet left, God reminded him how wrong he was. I feel like that friend was my reminder today that God is still in control and I am not alone. I can stand up for what is right and whatever happens, it will be okay. Maybe things won't end the way I want them to, but I can trust God to help me keep on going.
I feel not so much a storm as a little shower of emotional rain. My mind is filled to the brim with thoughts and trying not to go batty trying to sort them through on my own. Then I start feeling isolated as I have no one to talk to. I have therapy next week so I will talk then for sure. It’s not even anything bad; it’s just so full I am thinking out loud. That never bothered me before, but now I am feeling unsteady. I have talked to myself my whole life. I am certainly not going to stop now, but it feels like a gateway to the enemy deceiving me all over again. He can disguise his voice to sound like anyone else. So if my thoughts are out loud, I’m Vulnerable. I miss my friends. I have a few here and there . I miss lighthearted fun. I am just waiting for God to pull the curtain on this season and to start to feel more like myself again. I’m not asking God for anything He doesn’t want me to have, I just need to get through this little shower. I know God still has things for me to d...
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