Calling this blog bipolar is a bold move on my part being in a world where labels are taboo.
I have learned however that labels don't bite. Saying someone has cancer does not make them sicker. If you have a mental illness challenge, identifing what it is will help you get well. Ignoring a problem does not fix a problem. I have accepted my dianosis because in that acceptance came healing. That does not mean I fix it on my own or that I have to stop believing in God until I am perfect. I will not be perfect in this life. None of us will. Everyone has something they live with every day that they cannot fix. I thank God because He has a purpose I cannot see.
I feel not so much a storm as a little shower of emotional rain. My mind is filled to the brim with thoughts and trying not to go batty trying to sort them through on my own. Then I start feeling isolated as I have no one to talk to. I have therapy next week so I will talk then for sure. It’s not even anything bad; it’s just so full I am thinking out loud. That never bothered me before, but now I am feeling unsteady. I have talked to myself my whole life. I am certainly not going to stop now, but it feels like a gateway to the enemy deceiving me all over again. He can disguise his voice to sound like anyone else. So if my thoughts are out loud, I’m Vulnerable. I miss my friends. I have a few here and there . I miss lighthearted fun. I am just waiting for God to pull the curtain on this season and to start to feel more like myself again. I’m not asking God for anything He doesn’t want me to have, I just need to get through this little shower. I know God still has things for me to d...
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