This post is to encourage that person who feels like giving up because you think you’ll all alone. “No one understands what I’m going through.” Not true some people and Jesus always does. Reading through the book of Hebrews has helped me grasp that Jesus doesn’t just save us from sin. He actually cares about every aspect of our life and suffered human pain both physical and emotional. As for the people, let me be the first to admit, I have been there. I have thought I was a unwanted by those around me. I let the pain inflicted by one person allow me to believe that I was not valuable to anyone. I hid out from life in a deep, deep depression and thought how much easier it would be to just give up. Why didn’t I? There was a still small voice inside me. The voice of the Holy Spirit, Himself told me, “No.” I became a child of God at the age of five and although I often doubt I deserve it, and sometimes feared I had lost my salvation, I never did lose it and none of us deserve it. I questioned again my being on this earth on more day when the weight of postpartum depression threatened to swallow my whole. I can’t promise I have been through your trial, but here is the truth. You matter! God wants you! He made you to be His. He knew your life wouldn’t be easy, but he wants to use you just the way you are. The people around you that care about you might not be able to understand. Would you wish your suffering on them so they could? Of course not. Don’t think misunderstanding means lack of love. If their love, is making things harder for you, give yourself space to heal. It gets better. You’ll remember why you laugh and smile. You’ll remember again. For today, decide like I did. My life belongs to God. Only he can decide when it ends. You are precious. Don’t forget you are never alone. Don’t give up on life.
Up in the wee hours of the morning, is yet another perk of being bipolar. Yes, that's sarcasm because unlike some, I don't like being like this. I started getting a little more hyper than usual and now I can't sleep. I slept for an hour or two when hubby woke me up and I couldn't get back to sleep after. So I wasn't worried about anything, but I was wide awake. Even though I now feel tired, I still don't feel sleepy. It is hard to explain. Well I already took some calm down medicine and that didn't work so I am getting ready to take more. I use it only when I have to, but considering I need to function in a few hours I WILL consider this one of those times. I was excited about started school and I guess maybe I am going through an up cycle. That sort of makes sense since I had a down cycle in the beginning of the summer. I am glad that the cycles are much shorter than they used to be. I remember being tired and having little energy or ambition to do anyt...
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