I think the upset is blown over for now. Although I know we cannot allow our feelings to turn us inside out, when you feel things more intensely; it is harder to ignore them. Again not an excuse just a fact. My husband tends to boil over easier than me. That doesn’t make him horrible or make that right. It makes him human just as my over active feelings do me. I have been praying about the other stuff and I guess the ripple of sweetness was teaching kids to read the Bible. How excited they were to see that they could read it themselves. Being surrounded by apathy so often, it was refreshing. I can’t talk to my friends about spiritual stuff. Tried it always ends with them feeling aquard and embarrassed. But wouldn’t we all be better off if we really were encouraging each other to pray and read our Bibles? I get to feeling like we are trapped in this pointless reality. Because if I don’t fill myself up with truth, my mind finds everything else.
As a kid I watched my parents fight about different things. I don't really have any other parents to compare them to so I can't really say whether they were normal fights couples have or not. I couldn't even say what most of them were about except the ones that were about me. We only ate as a family on holidays. My father came home late so we kids ate without him. I do remember spending time with him in the evening before I went to bed so it couldn't have been that late. My own husband gets home a little later because of his job commute so we eat late every night. But home schooling has given us the ability to be more flexible than my Mom was able to be. We had school early the next day. As I got older, I remember my Father being home less and less and the fights seemed to intensify. I remember one night when I was thirteen. I could hear them yelling through the wall. My mom found me crying and I told her I didn't want them to get a divorce. She told me...
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