For right now much of my life is on hold while things are still racing by. Four months of watching what I eat and down about nine pounds which is enough for some things to be too big and most things to be the same. I have been put on more medication which I am hoping doesn’t give me severe acid reflux as it did last year. It is increasingly clear to me how little it matters. I am trying something new to have a tiny bit of enjoyment. Singing in a gospel choir. These people are extremely open and enthusiastic about praising God and maybe that will be helpful. Cause I am surrounded by beaten down people who can’t quite reach the hope. Who have no idea what living as a bipolar person looks like. Not sure how much longer I can be in that pressure cooker. If nothing changes, it just isn’t worth it.
Have you ever settled for just fine? Have you ever found yourself in pain every day and been told this is just normal for your age? After just not feeling good for a long time, I realized I was gaining weight again rapidly. I found this webinar about low thyroid and weight loss. I thought what’s the harm? I knew after that first session that I had found a solution. People have been telling me for years how they gave up sugar and felt amazing. I thought I just couldn’t do it. Now years later even before I started to watch I knew I have to give up sugar. Giving up gluten didn’t really help me because so much of the gluten free foods are loaded with sugar. Anyway, if you see me eating a chocolate bar, send help 🤣. I really want to wake up in the morning ready to start a day. Like that feeling on Christmas morning when you just can’t wait to get out of bed. What would it be like to feel like that every day? My pain is less some days than others. Exercise helps. I am thankful my God l...
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