I started this blog to talk about mental illness and I haven't really said much about that in awhile. Sometimes well meaning Christian folks think the best solution is to imediately cut off any feelings of depression or discouragement. I was reading Psalm 77 this morning, and it is interesting to note David's process. Sometimes you have to start where you are to move to a better place. We don't have "Beam me up Scouty," machines around here. David cried out to God in verse one. He says in verse three that his spirit is "overwhelmed." By verse seven you can see he is loosing hope. "Will the Lord cast me off forever...Is his mercy clean gone forever?" In verse ten he resolves, "This is my infirmity." David spends the rest of the Psalm praising God and remembering who He is. We don't know how long that process took. Allow me to walk beside you and say that you will be okay. God is still listening and He still cares. Can he heal and remove it all? Sure, He can. Remember it took one hundred years to build the Ark. Keep hanging on and don't loose hope.
Up in the wee hours of the morning, is yet another perk of being bipolar. Yes, that's sarcasm because unlike some, I don't like being like this. I started getting a little more hyper than usual and now I can't sleep. I slept for an hour or two when hubby woke me up and I couldn't get back to sleep after. So I wasn't worried about anything, but I was wide awake. Even though I now feel tired, I still don't feel sleepy. It is hard to explain. Well I already took some calm down medicine and that didn't work so I am getting ready to take more. I use it only when I have to, but considering I need to function in a few hours I WILL consider this one of those times. I was excited about started school and I guess maybe I am going through an up cycle. That sort of makes sense since I had a down cycle in the beginning of the summer. I am glad that the cycles are much shorter than they used to be. I remember being tired and having little energy or ambition to do anyt...
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