I am so running out of interesting titles for these posts. I say the sun just keeps shining today. No matter how bad you feel. No matter what’s going on. The sun just keeps shining. I am moving along through the fog of life. Life is incredibly stressful right now. Life is lonely too. I am tired from trying to socialize and lonely from not. It’s confusing and frustrating all at the same time. I really want us to get a dog, but hubby expects me to do it all by myself. I am not comfortable doing something that important alone. A dog is a member of the family. We need to make that decision together. We all need better emotional support. Either that or they need to switch me to the happy pills that make you sleep most of the day. Just saying. It’s an idea.
I feel not so much a storm as a little shower of emotional rain. My mind is filled to the brim with thoughts and trying not to go batty trying to sort them through on my own. Then I start feeling isolated as I have no one to talk to. I have therapy next week so I will talk then for sure. It’s not even anything bad; it’s just so full I am thinking out loud. That never bothered me before, but now I am feeling unsteady. I have talked to myself my whole life. I am certainly not going to stop now, but it feels like a gateway to the enemy deceiving me all over again. He can disguise his voice to sound like anyone else. So if my thoughts are out loud, I’m Vulnerable. I miss my friends. I have a few here and there . I miss lighthearted fun. I am just waiting for God to pull the curtain on this season and to start to feel more like myself again. I’m not asking God for anything He doesn’t want me to have, I just need to get through this little shower. I know God still has things for me to d...
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