Bipolar, but still Christian : Just Another Challege

 Today I had to buy food. We were out of lot of things and the shopping service just isn’t reliable if you really need stuff. Plus with food so expensive I just can’t afford to use them every time. So I decided to get myself a smoothie first since I had little appetite, but my sugar was dropping a lot yesterday. Smoothie King is the closest and they are fast. Got exactly what I wanted. They handed me a free small bag of veggie chips. I know probably no big deal, but I needed those chips. It was a little reminder that God is still good. I might think the people in my life have forgotten about me, but complete strangers are offering up kindness. Silly little bag made me so happy that I did something I haven’t in a while. I rearranged the grocery carts in the pouring rain so they fit better. Cause I was already soaking wet anyway and that silly thing makes me happy. I like blessing the store workers cause they work HARD. And yes, God is still good💚.

 True we are from dust and to dust we will return. I am just reflecting on our messed up life. That we keep people at arms length or more accurately they keep us. I have excepted my bipolar has that effect on people. If I am capable of saying things I wouldn’t normally say then I become this unsafe person. I still don’t understand the allusion of protecting my feelings. Maybe people still think mental illness makes you dumb. We are just lying here, hubby is joking about death because he’s sick, and I’m like… wait, if we did die who would notice. How many days would we just lie there? Haven’t slept well in three days so absolutely not coming from healthy place. Just saying. We might need to reconsider moving. Cause family might not LIKE the things we say and do that we shouldn’t, but they still love us. And that’s saying something.