Today I had to buy food. We were out of lot of things and the shopping service just isn’t reliable if you really need stuff. Plus with food so expensive I just can’t afford to use them every time. So I decided to get myself a smoothie first since I had little appetite, but my sugar was dropping a lot yesterday. Smoothie King is the closest and they are fast. Got exactly what I wanted. They handed me a free small bag of veggie chips. I know probably no big deal, but I needed those chips. It was a little reminder that God is still good. I might think the people in my life have forgotten about me, but complete strangers are offering up kindness. Silly little bag made me so happy that I did something I haven’t in a while. I rearranged the grocery carts in the pouring rain so they fit better. Cause I was already soaking wet anyway and that silly thing makes me happy. I like blessing the store workers cause they work HARD. And yes, God is still good💚.
I feel not so much a storm as a little shower of emotional rain. My mind is filled to the brim with thoughts and trying not to go batty trying to sort them through on my own. Then I start feeling isolated as I have no one to talk to. I have therapy next week so I will talk then for sure. It’s not even anything bad; it’s just so full I am thinking out loud. That never bothered me before, but now I am feeling unsteady. I have talked to myself my whole life. I am certainly not going to stop now, but it feels like a gateway to the enemy deceiving me all over again. He can disguise his voice to sound like anyone else. So if my thoughts are out loud, I’m Vulnerable. I miss my friends. I have a few here and there . I miss lighthearted fun. I am just waiting for God to pull the curtain on this season and to start to feel more like myself again. I’m not asking God for anything He doesn’t want me to have, I just need to get through this little shower. I know God still has things for me to d...
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