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Getting Unstuck

 So after spending almost a week in gorgeous and extremely dry Denver area, my body had some interesting challenges. I had to give myself a cyst bath and truly haven’t had this happen since I had my babies. I was so sore and stuck that was the only solution. Yes, it’s yucky to talk about, but it’s real. Good news, it worked. I found out that holding things back to protect other people’s feelings isn’t always the best solution. Started following some Christian trauma bloggers and wow. So much I didn’t know. Believe it or not, knowing is helping me heal. Knowing is helping me recognize my triggers and stop blindly reacting. I read the Bible, I listened to the soothing music, but there were these bands tied all around all that destroyed it’s effectiveness. I found myself praying and calming down, before I said anything. Having people walk beside me during that journey, and not walk away, Wow! My old friends just didn’t know what to do. I don’t fault them that. I didn’t know either. It’s not a matter of just saying a prayer and quoting Scripture. I actually had to find the source and keep doing that. I will always be very sensitive, but God can help me use it in positive ways. So conclusion, today may be starting out rough, but there’s joy in my heart. Jesus loves me. Period. He loves everyone. And if you just come as you are, he’s waiting for you. The other stuff…. Jesus always knew what to say. “Go and sin no more.” “Your sins are forgiven.” He could look right in their eyes and say exactly what they needed. How many more people could we reach if Jesus (Holy Spirit) was in the drivers seat. I can’t condone things I believe are clearly wrong, but God is the judge. He has it handled. I only have to do my assignment.

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