I am glad that no matter what’s happening, God already knows. Several times this week I have heard the verse, “I am the same, yesterday, today, forever.” I know some people, who don’t believe in final judgment. And others who seem to doubt eternal security. I go with the belief that the Bible doesn’t contradict itself. I believe the Bible. If the Bible says there’s death or eternal life, than I believe that. If you have eternal life than how can you ever loose it? As for the other, judgement. That doesn’t seem to hard to believe. I like John 3:18, “He that believeth is not condemned, but he that believeth not is condemned already because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten son of God.” I know it’s a mouth full, but the idea that we are NOT sentenced, punished, because we have believed. It’s Paul’s whole talk about the law being dead. Because we received grace, we don’t have to do anything to earn God’s forgiveness. That doesn’t mean we can’t do wrong and need to make it right. It means that our failure to be perfect on our own doesn’t matter. I Corinthians 15:19 says, “ If in this life only we have hope in Christ, we are men most miserable.” If that’s all there is. And yes that means some people will suffer. Not because God is awful, but because they refused to listen. Even in a last moment like that man who called out to Jesus as the hung on crosses. He was saved from his sin only moments before it was too late. So I think God’s mercy is a lot wider than people realize.
I feel not so much a storm as a little shower of emotional rain. My mind is filled to the brim with thoughts and trying not to go batty trying to sort them through on my own. Then I start feeling isolated as I have no one to talk to. I have therapy next week so I will talk then for sure. It’s not even anything bad; it’s just so full I am thinking out loud. That never bothered me before, but now I am feeling unsteady. I have talked to myself my whole life. I am certainly not going to stop now, but it feels like a gateway to the enemy deceiving me all over again. He can disguise his voice to sound like anyone else. So if my thoughts are out loud, I’m Vulnerable. I miss my friends. I have a few here and there . I miss lighthearted fun. I am just waiting for God to pull the curtain on this season and to start to feel more like myself again. I’m not asking God for anything He doesn’t want me to have, I just need to get through this little shower. I know God still has things for me to d...
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