Isaiah 26:3 , “Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.” I was driving along and praying as I do. My mind was spinning with concerns and this verse just popped into my memory. God’s answer so quick to arrive saying to focus on him and not everything else. I recognize it’s like Paul said about taking up his cross daily. We have to start over again every single day. I was of course fretting again this morning, and I remembered this from the other day. I can’t change anybody else. All I can do is keep trusting my God to change me. And understanding that I am enough because He choose me. People might have expectations we can’t fulfill, but God just says, “Come.” Come unto me. I titled this rest in the midst of the storm because we all know there’s a storm going on out there. Our rest in God is present even while the storm goes on. Whether you’re thinking of the world storm of war or something far more personal like emotional turmoil or physical pain, God’s rest can still be your hiding place.
I feel not so much a storm as a little shower of emotional rain. My mind is filled to the brim with thoughts and trying not to go batty trying to sort them through on my own. Then I start feeling isolated as I have no one to talk to. I have therapy next week so I will talk then for sure. It’s not even anything bad; it’s just so full I am thinking out loud. That never bothered me before, but now I am feeling unsteady. I have talked to myself my whole life. I am certainly not going to stop now, but it feels like a gateway to the enemy deceiving me all over again. He can disguise his voice to sound like anyone else. So if my thoughts are out loud, I’m Vulnerable. I miss my friends. I have a few here and there . I miss lighthearted fun. I am just waiting for God to pull the curtain on this season and to start to feel more like myself again. I’m not asking God for anything He doesn’t want me to have, I just need to get through this little shower. I know God still has things for me to d...
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