Hey, I decided to delete that last post, but thank you for those that suffered reading it. I feel much better now. It wasn’t anything serious. I am really hoping to figure out my inflammation. So far I just know ;it happens anytime I eat or take anything my body doesn’t like. The hard part is figuring out what that is. So far I can only tolerate some supplements. It’s getting dark early and it’s getting rough. Many of my friends who struggle with seasonal affective disorder as I do, are already struggling to get up in the morning. So if you don’t have that struggle, check on your friends. If you do, check on them. It’s almost Christmas so emotions are loose. Anxiety and depression are rampant. Yes, I believe God can give us victory. I also believe He asks us to be His instruments sometimes. James 5:16b comes to mind,” The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.”
I feel not so much a storm as a little shower of emotional rain. My mind is filled to the brim with thoughts and trying not to go batty trying to sort them through on my own. Then I start feeling isolated as I have no one to talk to. I have therapy next week so I will talk then for sure. It’s not even anything bad; it’s just so full I am thinking out loud. That never bothered me before, but now I am feeling unsteady. I have talked to myself my whole life. I am certainly not going to stop now, but it feels like a gateway to the enemy deceiving me all over again. He can disguise his voice to sound like anyone else. So if my thoughts are out loud, I’m Vulnerable. I miss my friends. I have a few here and there . I miss lighthearted fun. I am just waiting for God to pull the curtain on this season and to start to feel more like myself again. I’m not asking God for anything He doesn’t want me to have, I just need to get through this little shower. I know God still has things for me to d...
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