This is my scripture response to my last writing. I believe there are times when I have to battle against lies in my own head. I am blessed to believe in Jesus Christ who is the truth(John 14). I also see in scripture that the Holy Spiritual is called the Spirit of truth(John 15:26). Also God the Father, Psalm 31:5, “ O LORD God of truth.” I read in Psalm 63 as king David wrote, “the mouth of them that speak lies shall be stopped. I thought about the times when too exhausted to fight anymore I just fell into God’s arms and let it go. He fights for us. He does it. I wonder how much energy I waste trying to fight it off myself. Anyway, if you know my God, you know He IS truth and He fights for us. When we’re too weak to stand, He fights. When we’re too weary to speak, He fights for us. III. John 1:4 “ I have no greater joy than to hear my that children walk in truth.”
I feel not so much a storm as a little shower of emotional rain. My mind is filled to the brim with thoughts and trying not to go batty trying to sort them through on my own. Then I start feeling isolated as I have no one to talk to. I have therapy next week so I will talk then for sure. It’s not even anything bad; it’s just so full I am thinking out loud. That never bothered me before, but now I am feeling unsteady. I have talked to myself my whole life. I am certainly not going to stop now, but it feels like a gateway to the enemy deceiving me all over again. He can disguise his voice to sound like anyone else. So if my thoughts are out loud, I’m Vulnerable. I miss my friends. I have a few here and there . I miss lighthearted fun. I am just waiting for God to pull the curtain on this season and to start to feel more like myself again. I’m not asking God for anything He doesn’t want me to have, I just need to get through this little shower. I know God still has things for me to d...
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