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A Timely Lesson

 “Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:”

‭‭1 Peter‬ ‭5‬:‭6‬ ‭KJV‬‬

This verse has been coming to mind daily for several weeks now. I had no idea why. I thought to myself , “Why God? Am I not humble?” I wasn’t prepared for the answer. You see I just spent nine days in a psychiatric facility. It doesn’t get much lower. I tried to read the Bible, but my eyes couldn’t focus on the words. I read the same passage over and over. Sometimes we are just broken at the feet of Jesus.  I was still me. A little all over the place that first day after several days of little sleep. God never left me. I generally keep this part of my life  hush, hush but I was there to give God glory. Once again, I can give Him all the glory. Without God, I would have stopped fighting to be well. Without God, I would have suffered alone. I wasn’t afraid to go, but definitely dreaded it. A mentally ill person is the same person with extra emotions due to physical imbalances. I had opportunities to shine the light and love of Jesus. I know who I am. God didn’t ask me to forget. My point being I was willing to be there because God asked me to. He didn’t cause the lack of sleep, but He used my circumstances to put me in a place for “such a time as this.”  I won’t give out other people’s personal information, but I can say yes, God was working. God hasn’t exactly exalted me because it’s not time yet. That lifting up will take place when I stand before Jesus in Glory.

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