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Happy Light

 I’m haven’t used my “happy light” in a long time, but it seemed like a good idea today. The sky is grey and it’s been raining a few days. The light mimics sunlight to help treat seasonal effective disorder. Fancy title for I need more sun. Our world is a scary place right now. Besides the worldwide violence there is an increase in senseless crimes like school shootings and church shootings. Wildfires are destroying whole neighborhoods, and floods are still displacing people from their homes. We live in harsh times. I saw people who were in such a hurry to get through the grocery store that they couldn’t see anyone else. A world in desperate need of light. As I found myself crumbling today, I have to remind myself of the mission. “Let your light so shine before men…” Matthew 5:16. People think I am naive when I choose to dwell on positive things. I am aware of the ugly things going on around me. Some days you can feel it in the atmosphere. A heaviness flows that is contagious. I know that no matter what is going on around me, God is still my father. Jesus is still my friend. He didn’t leave me alone. He knows about the hurts we carry whether it be grief, or trauma, or loneliness. God knows our hearts. If we can rise above the hurt and keep on going maybe we can find a reason to joy again. Or maybe we need a day to rest. Sometimes we have to give ourselves permission to rest and let the grief out. Although I choose joy, it looks like today I choose rest.  

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