I feel the need to vent some feelings. I haven’t seen my therapist in months because she’s taken a leave of absence. My mind is overwhelmed and I really want to dig a whole and jump in. The election is a dumpster fire. I have no respect for any of the people I have to choose from to vote. It’s all a game to them, but this is our life. Disaster devastation is ongoing from hurricane Helene at the moment. War overseas is ongoing. People are fighting for the right to live outside the boxes of God’s design. It really is the beginning of end. Yet I wake up feeling dread and struggling to get up. I feel broken in ways that can’t be fixed. I know God hasn’t left me, but the more anxious I become the further away He feels. Psalm121 comes to mind,” I will lift up my eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the LORD which made heaven and earth.”( Psalm 121:1-2) I am off to look to the hills. Hopefully tomorrow I can think differently.
I wear glasses and after a whole day my vision will start to get blurry. I realize that my lenses aren’t clean anymore. I am trying to see through spots. I thought this would make a great analogy as we think about the world before us. Some people look out and can only see darkness, wickedness, and destruction. Maybe we need new lenses. Not that there isn’t any or tons of wickedness, but that there is a greater purpose for our still walking this earth. We can’t see that if we are stuck in our negative reflections. So what are those spots you ask? Unforgiveness, cultural differences, misunderstandings, our own convictions, or self righteousness. I am not suggesting that we immerse ourselves into things that we know are wrong. I am suggesting that we focus on Jesus first and see what happens. Whether we are with our church family or out and about it may help to see things through Jesus rather than through our stuff.